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I smiled.
Nothing even remotely close to funny had happened that day.
For a change, it was not even one of those quotations from Groucho Marx or Oscar Wilde or Woody Allen that made me smile.
No, it was not even the cool evening breeze.
I wondered if it was that cynical smile I wear quite often. No, it was not - there was something so pure about this smile.

The sheer meaninglessness of everything seemed so trivial. And nothing mattered.
There was no joy, no pain, no sarcasm, no irony. I felt nothing. It was just pure bliss. I realized what Nirvana really means.
I wished somebody took my snap at that moment. [I feel so very uncomfortable smiling for the camera, that I appear awful in all those smiling pics of mine. This could have been my ideal profile pic. Well, anyways!]
Could anybody be in that state for eternity? I wish I could, I would have given anything in the world then, to be in that state forever. But, I knew it would fade away soon and I had to relish it as long as it lasts.

I look a long look at the mad world around me and smiled for the last time!
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Sunil said…
Sounds grass.
August 27, 2007 5:15 PM
mouna said…
one does not need a reason to smile, it is something that comes very naturally to us. as u say, that point of time appears pure and magical. how we wish that it would last for a long time. everything appears trivial then, yes.

hope u can experience the joy of such moments. simple ecstasy, that's what they are. i so, totally agree with u :)
August 27, 2007 11:02 PM
mouna said…
u call this 'rant'? come on, and what are u cribbing about? can u remove that particular tag, please :)
August 27, 2007 11:10 PM
krupa said…
You sound like someone who has seen too many Bergman movies after reading a dozen Osho books!Lighten up...
August 28, 2007 2:50 AM
Anonymous said…
Assuming you can read and write kannada quite well (ok, reading is good enough as far as this comment goes). As DVG says:

ನಗುವು ಸಹಜದ ಧರ್ಮ
ನಗಿಸುವುದು ಪರಧರ್ಮ
ನಗುವ ನಗುತ ನೋಡುವುದು ಅತಿಶಯದ ಧರ್ಮ
August 28, 2007 6:29 AM
parijata said…
"I feel so very uncomfortable smiling for the camera, that I appear awful in all those smiling pics of mine"
Currently I am reading Dr.V.S.Ramachandran's book, 'Phantoms in the Brain'. There he gives the reason why we find it so uncomfortable smiling for the camera, while we smile easily when we see a friend. To put it briefly, different regions of the brain handle those two actions, therefore, the results are also different.

Sorry for going off-topic, but I couldn't resist...
August 29, 2007 1:35 PM
Bit Hawk said…
@sunil
No "grass", I was just feeling weird thats all!

@mouna
Most of my posts tend to be rants, so I had tagged it also as "rant" without giving much thought.

@krupa
I had not read Osho. May be its just Bergman movies, will stop them for a while. Saw the Bourne movies this week and I am alive n kicking!

@december stud
Nice quote. Oh yes, I can read Kannada very well, though my firefox makes it a tad difficult by not rendering Kannada characters properly. :)
August 29, 2007 1:35 PM
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