I smiled.
Nothing even remotely close to funny had happened that day.
For a change, it was not even one of those quotations from Groucho Marx or Oscar Wilde or Woody Allen that made me smile.
No, it was not even the cool evening breeze.
I wondered if it was that cynical smile I wear quite often. No, it was not - there was something so pure about this smile.
The sheer meaninglessness of everything seemed so trivial. And nothing mattered.
There was no joy, no pain, no sarcasm, no irony. I felt nothing. It was just pure bliss. I realized what Nirvana really means.
I wished somebody took my snap at that moment. [I feel so very uncomfortable smiling for the camera, that I appear awful in all those smiling pics of mine. This could have been my ideal profile pic. Well, anyways!]
Could anybody be in that state for eternity? I wish I could, I would have given anything in the world then, to be in that state forever. But, I knew it would fade away soon and I had to relish it as long as it lasts.
I look a long look at the mad world around me and smiled for the last time!
Nothing even remotely close to funny had happened that day.
For a change, it was not even one of those quotations from Groucho Marx or Oscar Wilde or Woody Allen that made me smile.
No, it was not even the cool evening breeze.
I wondered if it was that cynical smile I wear quite often. No, it was not - there was something so pure about this smile.
The sheer meaninglessness of everything seemed so trivial. And nothing mattered.
There was no joy, no pain, no sarcasm, no irony. I felt nothing. It was just pure bliss. I realized what Nirvana really means.
I wished somebody took my snap at that moment. [I feel so very uncomfortable smiling for the camera, that I appear awful in all those smiling pics of mine. This could have been my ideal profile pic. Well, anyways!]
Could anybody be in that state for eternity? I wish I could, I would have given anything in the world then, to be in that state forever. But, I knew it would fade away soon and I had to relish it as long as it lasts.
I look a long look at the mad world around me and smiled for the last time!
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hope u can experience the joy of such moments. simple ecstasy, that's what they are. i so, totally agree with u :)
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Currently I am reading Dr.V.S.Ramachandran's book, 'Phantoms in the Brain'. There he gives the reason why we find it so uncomfortable smiling for the camera, while we smile easily when we see a friend. To put it briefly, different regions of the brain handle those two actions, therefore, the results are also different.
Sorry for going off-topic, but I couldn't resist...
No "grass", I was just feeling weird thats all!
@mouna
Most of my posts tend to be rants, so I had tagged it also as "rant" without giving much thought.
@krupa
I had not read Osho. May be its just Bergman movies, will stop them for a while. Saw the Bourne movies this week and I am alive n kicking!
@december stud
Nice quote. Oh yes, I can read Kannada very well, though my firefox makes it a tad difficult by not rendering Kannada characters properly. :)